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Name: Alicia
Birthday: 6/4/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: my baby boy, badminton, long discussions, walking on the beach, long drives to nowhere in particular, sunsets, music, running, stargazer lilies, clothes, small insignificant randomnesses...
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Member Since:
12/30/2006
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| You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you
You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you
You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you
(Died for you)
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Every smile you fake is so condescending
Counting all the scars you made
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you | | |
| Take a breath, take it deep
Calm yourself, he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take a gun, and count to three
I’m sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go [Chorus ]
And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest
And I’m terrified but I’m not leaving
Know that I must must pass this test
So just pull the trigger Say a prayer to yourself
He says close your eyes
Sometimes it helps
And then I get a scary thought
That he’s here means he’s never lost (Chorus) As my life flashes before my eyes
I’m wondering will I ever see another sunrise?
So many won’t get the chance to say goodbye
But it’s too late too pick up the value of my life | | |
| So here we are
Fighting and trying to hide the scars
I'll be home tonight, take a breath and softly say goodbye
The lonely road, the one that I should try to walk alone
I'll be home tonight take a breath and softly say goodbye
You wouldn't like me
Keep moving on until forever ends
Don't try to fight me
The beauty queen has lost her crown again | | |
| So clever, whatever, I'm done with these endeavors
Alone I'll walk the winding way (here I stay)
It's over, no longer, I feel it growing stronger
I live to die another day, until I fade away
Why give up? Why give in?
It's not enough, it never is
So I will go on until the end
We've become, desolate
It's not enough, it never is
But I will go on until the end
Surround me, it's easy, to fall apart completely
I feel you creeping up again (In my Head)
It's over, no longer, I feel it growing colder
I knew this day would come to end, so let this life begin
Why give up? Why give in?
It's not enough, it never is
So I will go on until the end
We've become, desolate
It's not enough, it never is
But I will go on until the end
I've lost my way
I've lost my way
But I will go on until the end
Living is, hard enough, without you f-ing UP.........
Why give up? Why give in?
It's not enough, it never is
So I will go on until the end
We've become, desolate
It's not enough, it never is
But I will go on until the end
I've lost the way
I've lost the way
But I will go on until the end
The final fight I win
The final fight I win
The final fight I win
But I will go on until the end | | |
| So... the month is pretty much over and we pick Thomas up from the airport today. It's actually gone very quickly. I just hope the next two months go by as fast. Since I asked everyone for keeping busy ideas, I thought I would post some of the things we've done. - We had someone (one of my siblings) here pretty much the whole time. Kirsten came up for a few days; Josh and Ariana came for a night; mom and dad with the little boys; and Cam, Kathryn, and Virginia this last weekend. It's been fun, especially cause I love parties, and we don't usually have a lot of people over when Thomas is home.
- Painting!! Kirsten and I painted our bedroom cubby which Thomas and I finished building the night he left. We also painted the ceiling in our bedroom, which was just a little messy, but a total blast...
 and I repainted the stand for the fish tank. - We deep cleaned absolutely everything... including the dishwasher, which was totally atrocious, but a lot of fun, and I have now become somewhat obsessed with keeping it clean.
- Tried to stick to a diet, and although I didn't stay with it the whole time... parties do need snacks... I somehow managed not to gain a single pound. And I still fit in my pre-pregnancy pants, which at 8 months makes me happy lol...
- Bought a craft kit and have been working on crafts with Kaden. Which probably doesn't seem like a big deal to most people, but we didn't really do a lot of crafts growing up and I hate messes, so it was a big thing. We've also been working on the learning the alphabet and the letter sounds. He LOVES doing alphabet puzzles. Here are some of the crafts we made... he's definitely had some uncle influence when it comes to vehicles... I made the car, and he looks at it, hands it back, and says, "no, want a truck."
  
6. And our last accomplishment was making two baby blankets - one blue and one pink - for the baby. Since I've never actually finished any knitting projects, I was fairly excited about this one, and managed to finish them both in a little under two weeks.
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